Pray & Be Happy

I don't have everything I want in life, but that's okay. I'm not always happy, and it's implausible to think every moment will be sunshine and daises, but I am happy. I've made the conscious decision to smile when I'm down, as well as change negative thinking, and those changes alone makes a significant difference. The thing that has helped me most though, is prayer - truly giving my problems to God. I won't go into a triad - my belief and Faith is my own. However, in the journey to find happiness, my spiritual awakening has been the greatest medicine.

So yes, I love a man whom I probably do not have a chance with. No, I'm not living in my own home or have my own vehicle as of now. My novel hasn't been published yet, and my hair will never be sleek, shiny, and straight (bit of nonsense thrown in ;)). But what I do have, I'm incredibly blessed. I have a beautiful daughter, a roof over my head, food to eat - that's more than many have in just this country alone. As for my unrequited love, at least I've experienced it - truly - and I'm thankful for meeting him and any moment I'm given to to spend with him. Again, it's more than what some people have. And you know what, my struggles are what have helped me to realize just how blessed I am and how truly amazing God is. I truly believe everything that has happened in my life, has been God's way of bringing me to him. Closer to him. And I'm thankful for that.

Yes, I still want those things I mentioned and more (some more than others, but I won't get too personal), but I've left it to God and that is all I can do. I won't worry and over think the situations anymore. When I start too, I take a deep breath and I pray and everything is okay. What is supposed to happen will happen, and no matter what, I will be okay. I will make it. I will prevail. I have God, and He - my Faith - is all I need.